Hey guys, how are you doing? Miss me? Yea, i miss you lots…
My end-of-term holiday starts today, and when holidays are mentioned joyfulness and relieve is expected from the one expressing it. Sigh, but for me I do not know whether I should be happy or sad, aihz, feeling a bit like Harry Potter now, because I know I am going to miss all my good friends in Cendana, they have helped and blessed me SO SO SO much, we are a wonderful family…sigh, already missing them…
The thought of me moving from Subang to Shah Alam late June this year made me pondered about how God is working amazingly in my life. As time and event goes and happens respectively, I am starting to realise how much more I need to be appreciative for all that He had and is doing now in my life, there is so much to express and even more to be amazed of. Until now, I am feeling guilty for all the murmurs I have thrown out to people and to God about my little life, where most of the complaints are generated from the rigidity and smallness of my microscopic understanding of our awesome God…
The huge amount of joy and happiness that I have not experienced before from wonderful caring people is one of the most precious element I have been blessed during the days in Shah Alam. Back in Subang, though how great the education there may be, I remember myself lacking close friendship with people, always feeling sad and lonely especially after college hours. I recall forcing myself to the library every day to study mainly because I actually have literally nothing else to do. I had no one to really hang out with then, and for most of the evenings, I spent my dinner time alone, eating only with my shadow. For the night hours in another hand, I remember the sufferings due to the loneliness I faced every night, and the worse thing is, the only way I can keep my head off from this sense of unbelonging is to study my maths, physics, chem and so forth, therefore truly and honestly speaking, every night for the 6 months in Subang, I had been literally studying, no fun no talk no joy…Straight fowardly, I hated everything in Subang except for my classmates, my lecturers, Little Taiwan, MAC center, and Salmon Steak. However, everything changed when I moved to Shah Alam, I have loads of friends now to hang out for dinner, to have fun in KL, Sunway, and even in old Subang. I am able to attend Campus Alive, a contrast to then in Taylors where I can only spend 15 minutes for Campus City because of my Chemistry Practical class. I have friends to talk to every night, to sing and play music and watch movies when relaxation is freakingly needed! Praise God for His love and grace, for hearing the 6 months of my agony in that stupid house and room I lived during my stay in SS15. Though i do really miss the education in Taylors and my loving lecturers, I am thankful that I have the 6 months worth of knowledge that I can apply for the later 6 months in INTEC, to use them to bless others as they have blessed me with their love and companionship. If I had stayed on in Taylors, I honestly have an impression that I will suffer from severe depression due to the pressure and loneliness there. My life has changed so much - from literally counting the days and hours left every week so that I can escape from that stupid house in SS15 to my home in Seremban, to not wishing to go back but to stay on in the hostel in Shah Alam (I still go back home though, for my family and my home church, If not for them, I would have stayed on every weekend) is such a marvelous 180 degree turn that I did not expect at all to experience. From eating dinner alone to feasting with friends every night; from studying crazily every night to chit chatting and sharing thoughts and life stories; in short - from loneliness to awesome companionship…How much I love each and everyone of you, thank you SO much, may God bless you and keep you safe in His arms everyday, and I pray that you will be blessed abundantly too. Blessing comes in abundance from our God who loves us, proclaim the promises of the Lord, and may God pour continously into your overflowing cup…
-cALVIn-
