Manna In The Wilderness

Oh no…

10 things bashed into my mind…

1)  I have a tendency to smoke.  I enjoy the smell of kampung tobacco!

2)  I love beer, yummy.  I once drank 3 cans straight.  Just drank one bottle, feeling a bit…ohh my…

3)  I can slog for days!  Gosh, what a waste…one week holiday gone…sigh, the gall of defeat!!

4)  For the first time, I am starting to dislike/hate certain people…no…got to love one another!!

5)  I want to enjoy my life too much, I want an extended holiday!!  GRRrrr…

6)  I am addicted to X-files…shit!

7)  I am starting to be addicted to O2jam!!  sigh…

8)  I am getting better at bowling and pool…hm, not a bad thing right?

9)  I eat more than I used to to…no, don’t wanna be fat…spare tyres don’t do you good now!!

10) TOMORROW I AM GOING BACK TO INTEC!!  NOOOOOOOOOOoooooo….bwahahahahah… =.(

gOd BlEeezz…

Zzz…

My friends,

Have you ever walked on smooth grass, knowing that they will not hurt you?

Have you ever tread on shallow waters, knowing that they will not drown you?

Have you ever touched white snow, knowing that they will not burn you?

Have you ever hear beautiful music, knowing that they will not weaken you?

And have you ever been in the midst of loved ones and companions, knowing that none will harm you?

Have you?  If you have, your faith is strong.

But,

Have you ever walked on sharp thorns, knowing you will not be hurt?

Have you ever tread on deep waters, knowing you will not be drowned?

Have you ever touched fierce fires, knowing you will not be burned?

Have you ever hear quarrels, knowing you will not be weakened?

And have you been in the midst of loneliness and desperation, knowing that the Lord Jesus Christ is with you always and forever?

Have you?  If you have, your faith is much stronger.

God is real, and He loves you, no matter who you are, no matter how you are.  For He sent his one and only Son to die for your sins, so that He may draw near to you.  Draw near to Him, trust Him, for He is God and He loves you just as you are.

-calvin-

AHhh…

The soothing feeling of a happy sigh,

             where in each ray of morning sunlight, I fear no congestion, no anxiety, no supressed feelings,

just the thought that I am in safe hands, in the vicinity of peace, joy and love…

and in the atmosphere of cloudy, mysterious, debussy-ravel watery music, gently from the harps, organs…strings, winds….ahhh, do you feel it?  Oh yes, I do…

For so long this moment I have awaited, and now it is just beside me, how then would I be able to face the moment when all of this will be no more?  No…in my life, everything good seems to stop for a moment, and I will be among the angels, swarming in the whirpool of peace…And for every bad moment, my life will carry on, as though these events never happened.  Not that I am to dismiss anything bad nor to take anything for granted, but only to gain what is good from all that my life here will encounter. 

Hi guys. 

Just came back from Shah Alam, at 12.00am!! Damn tired.  Today is friday and my first C++ test, and also the very first time I have to sit for a test at night!!  Haha, didn’t expect things to turn out this way.  Also, I am still not sure why they arranged the test to be held tonight, 8 to 10pm, weird…some say they put it this way so that all are able to sit for the test…huh?  Anyway, my life in INTEC has improved much, things are getting in order in my hostel, college, class, friends, leisure time, Campus Alive (yeah…), food, and others.  One thing they really need to work on though is their freaking useless bus system!!  One for the bus driver got me really pissed off this morning when he literally shooed me of the bus because it was ALMOST full…grr…Good for the bus driver that brought me to INTEC this morning when he did not kick me off the bus after it got almost full too, or not he was really gonna get something big from me…grr…But I cannot blame them lar, they were just doing their job and abding to the rules on the road at the same time.  But what about the poor polite and courteous students who always won’t get a chance to board the earlier busses?  They really gotta do something…Today, I got up at 6.00am, went to the bus stop at 7.00am, but was only able to reach INTEC at 8.15am…sigh…bad day, at 9.30am when I wanted to have something to eat, I realised that my wallet wasn’t with me, thanks to my HT friend who was kind enough to belanja me.

Nothing much to say la, so i’ll just stop here.  Cheers!

++calvin++

I am so alone,

           where are you my dear

                                             companions?

Have you not heard my cry for

                         fellowship and companionship?

Have you not know, that my suffering is

                                             leading me to despair?

You have left me so silently.

           telling me silence as you left.

You left no marks,

                                       no whispers,

                                                                     no meanings,

when I did not hear your footsteps, shaded by

                               the shades in the dark night;

for you wore shoes and sandals of farewells and goodbyes…

- I will miss you still, although you are far away; our memories together shall live in me, ‘where dreams have no end’ -

                                                                                                     Calvin~~sad