Manna In The Wilderness

hi…

glad to be home for a day from INTEC…lousy place, coz my driving exam is tomorrow…shit, hope i can pass…i really need some confidence right now.

haiz, as Ryan told me, i think we did a bloody mistake by leaving precious Taylors…gosh, cannot imagine how my life is REALLY gonna turn around…the environment in INTEC is NOTHING like Taylors subang - dun wan to get to the details la, who knows where i will end up if i did -…sad case, ryan and i spent most of our FREE time (most of our time were used up for the stupid orientation…doing lotsa stuff which in my opinion are mostly unneccessary) conversing bout taylors n how life there is so much better and convenient compared to here in Shah Alam.  Will miss the variety of food in subang, though actually got very bored with all of em…but still there is variety, unlike nearby my hostel, where one can only spot 2 mamak restaurants, 1 petronas (no use for me), 1 indian grocery store, 1 7/11, 1 police station (security), and lots lots lots of trees… and whats worse…my hostel (they call it Kolej Cendana) is so damn far from INTEC…waited for the bus for at least an hour at the gate…Grrr….(mayb was being too polite…ryan knows what i mean)…sigh…what to do?  the things we hv to sacrifice and accept, in order to receive help for our education, i guess its worth it…

so many things there im not really glad about…those who really know me well will know what im talking about…the place is like…so….ermm…not ‘teenager friendly’??  i guess that sums up the whole thing…esshhh…i thought im old fashion, so what makes the college??  huh?

ya…another thing, i really dunno whether i should continue my engineer course…not sure whether i really want to be an engineer actually…honestly, i was kinda relieved when i didnt get the scholarship coz dun hv to think bout engineering adi…y oh y did i go and appeal!!  SHIT!  because now i hv the scholarship in my hands, it is without a sniff of doubt that this scholarship is gonna save a big hole in mah daddy’s pocket…though i hv to sacrifice my own interest for the greater good, for my family.  but no point standing up for myself (yet), coz i dont even know what i want…i thought what i wanted was my true passion, aihzz…but now, i even doubt my own passion for anything…guess my passion is to stay at home watching TV, mind u coz i didnt get the chance to savour the 6 long months of free time most of YOU guys had, so…hvnt got bored of TV yet….not yet…haha!!

Im so mentally deprived…my mind is so messed up right now…dunno what exactly im suppose to think about…oh ya, tomorrow’s driving exam…aihz…god hv mercy…gtg to my own self created mind imagining virtual reality driving test…haha…hey it actually helps a lot, since no manual car for poor me to practice!!

well, see you in a mars year’s time…buh bye

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