Manna In The Wilderness

Quizes, exams, trials…all of em……they suck, especially in making me sleepy, even though sometimes they should be good at it.  Anyway, haven’t slept well these days, recent sleeps weren’t very satisfying. 

However, I did enjoy myself today in school.  Just wanna say a BIG THANK YOU, to TIMOTHY, LAI ZHAN FAI, KIMBERLY & VIVI, for making my day an enjoyable one, funfilled with singing, for willing to spend time to practice with me, for being so cooperative and supportive…..!!!  TQ!  haha, and also want to say congrats to ming jie n his team for giving such a trilling performance!  Kudos, your team’s perfomance is absolutely the coolest and the most exciting one! 

Well, that’s then, but now its over, no more ACS Idol…back to studies…… haizzzzz!!    

PS:  Sorry for posting such a short post, well, at least it won’t eat up much of your time……! enjoy…~~~

Let the weak say I am strong

Let the poor say I am rich

Let the blind say I can see

It’s what the Lord has done in me

               Hosanna, hosanna

               To the Lamb that was slain

               Hosanna, hosanna

               Jesus died and rose again

Into the river I will wade

There my sins are washed away

From the heavens mercy streams

Of the saviours’s love for me

               Hosanna, hosanna

               To the Lamb that was slain

               Hosanna, hosanna

               Jesus died and rose again

I will rise from the waters deep

Into the saving arms of God

I will sing salvation songs

Jesus Christ has set me free

               Hosanna, hosanna

               To the Lamb that was slain

               Hosanna, hosanna

               Jesus died and rose again

                                                                                           Reuben Morgan

haiz,

I feel really miserable today.

Now I know how Ming Jie feels, that is when other people around him are sad and miserable.   I understand exactly what he meant when he says that he feels terrible and sad when his friends around him are down.  I just want to say that I am very sorry to have hurt him, through this way one month ago.  Gosh, it feels really bad to see my friends in pain, to see them with their heads down, looking deep into the ground as they walk, as though they have no reason to live anymore.  I just hope that my friend will know how fortunate he is, because there are many people around him that love and care for him, including myself, and cannot bear to see him suffer.  Today may be hard for him ; and surely it was hard for me and Timothy too ; but that doesn’t mean we should dwell in that hardness forever, instead we should call out to God for help to pull us up and back us up.  But I know how the pain feels like, because I myself been through it right after the May-June holidays in school, where I see myself going down the drain, and when I said to myself that I am useless, I didn’t do my best, I am a failure, and also when I realize that I am actually full of jealousy, but yet I know its wrong.  I felt terrible.  Anger, jealousy, sorrow, lostness, lonliness fills my atmosphere for more than 3 weeks.  I do not know whether my friend can tell that I felt that way.  But I know that he would not judge me, instead I know that he will encourage me and remind me of how fortunate I am.  So now, I just want to tell him that this is not the end ; I can guarantee him that 200% ; and that its DEFINATELY not his fault that we didn’t succeed.  So don’t blame youself okay?  Just want to tell you that you are not useless, or uncapable or anything like that…O yes, it is true that we are useless and uncapable ON OUR OWN, but with God’s help, imperfectness is made perfect and all things are possible!  I may not always be available to help you in your troubles, but surely God is, because JESUS IS YOUR BEST FRIEND…… !!  He loves you, and so do I.

gosh…exam is really near!  I can really feel the tension and the anxiety not only in myself but also in my friends…..

aiseh……sometimes I feel really bad for not utilizing my time to the fullest, in studies wise lar…always waste time on the computer doing nonsense in frienster, msn, shareaza (even now as I create this post), sticking my fingers on the piano and the violin for 2-3 hours, watch the same musicals over and over again……

man, the bad feeling really hurts…the thing is, I know that the feeling of guilt will only leave me by sticking my brains on the damn books, and not wasting precious time doing things unrelated to exams…(eh, mind you that worshiping and praying to God is related to exams in the sense that I cannot do well without Him = ), so……don’t get the wrong idea, ‘kay?).  aihz, but still I don’t use what I know, instead I let the temptations around me to pull me down…

I guess the agenda here is discipline and good attitude…I just pray that God will help me to be more disciplined and firm when it comes to studying, to concentrate and not too often wonder off to ‘Carnegie Hall’ or anything like it.  I pray for a mind of quick understanding, so that I would not have to crack my head for a long period just to understand a sentence, but will be able to finish studying what I must in time…! haiz, I’m sure most of my friends are also facing this problem at this time of the year…well, haha, at least I don’t feel that I am inferior to my friends…

Well, this coming monday is the add math quiz, and there are many other quizes coming on their way…trial is just at the corner, and at last, SPM…!  God, help me……without you, I know I’ll be dead years ago, you have helped me through many, many narrow paths, and there is no reason why you shouldn’t help me this time.

TO ALL MY FRIENDS……MAY GOD BE WITH YOU, AND HELP YOU IN YOUR COMING EXAMS, QUIZES, INTERVIEWS, OR WHATSOEVER…JUST REMEMBER THAT WITH GOD’S HELP, ALL THINGS ARE POSSIBLE……! AMEN!