so be it
man……
i’m so tired.
can’t think at this moment.
lost.
i noe i should run to god
but still,
i’m lost,
i’m a coward.
i dun dare to face it,
i dun dare to share it,
i noe it will ruin my life.
but yet,
i noe that accepting it,
is still d right thing to do.
even though its tough,
not easy,
my heart says its d right thing to do.
i’m scared,
afraid,
terrified of this world……
i dunno where to go,
even though i noe where i should go.
god, my lord
ur my only hope,
give me strength to go to you,
trust u,
to surrender,
to put down my sword,
and follow u,
to carry my own cross.
this is my cross,
to be something, i never expected nor wanted to be.
god has already chose me,
to carry this cross.
he made d choice,
nows my turn,
to make the choice.
my lord,
help me,
i choose to follow you,
for your kingdom is not of this world,
i choose to trust you,
for you see my life here from the end to the beginning,
i choose to surrender,
for i have faith in you setting the path for me.
nothing more i have to say,
i have made the choice,
the choice to be nailed on my own cross,
the choice to follow the only way, the only truth, and the only living god.
my lord,
if this is to be,
then,
……………so be it.
